putting myself in someone else's "Shoes"

I truly believe that God places people in your path for a reason.  Those people are friends, co-workers, or even random people you meet throughout your day. Some of the best conversations take place around the water cooler.  Well, at my office we don't have a water cooler but we have a kitchenette with a coffee pot.  And for all of you who know me and my coffee addiction you know that I spend alot of time around that area.

This past week while at the coffee pot, I ran into someone who knows what it is like to have a loved one with cancer.  A co-worker of mine found out recently that his son has leukemia. As we began sharing our stories and remembering what it was like to find out that our loved ones were diagnosed.  We talked about how unprepared we were and about how our faith had changed because of cancer.  God placed him at the coffee pot at the right time.. His time.  Our talk was very inspiring and encouraging.  

About two weeks ago it was that time of the year that both Jesse and I dread.  It was the time of the year for Jesse to take his cancer test. So this entire time I have been waiting impatiently for the results.  I found myself asking Jesse every day "did they call?" Or "ok maybe you should call them"... And finally last Friday we received the call.. The results were that he needed more tests.  Was this bad or is that good, I wondered? So here I am today finding myself to be more and more impatient.  Wanting everything to be ok instantly .. So here we are in the waiting period again...

I praise the Lord that I have an awesome husband that is faithful and trusts in God.  He trusts that God is always in control.  Joshua 1:9 says Be strong and courageous.  Do not be afraid; do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. Jesse is strong and courageous, I wish I was there...  I could say that I am not worrying about this, but I would be lying if I did.  It is really hard, but with God's guidance I'll get there. 

Also to be honest I haven't wanted to tell too many people about this.  To have to answer all the questions like... have you heard from the doctor yet??? what did the Dr. say??? what does this mean??? I didn't want to have to go through that.  So I didn't tell too many people that I was going through this.  

So let me guess what you are thinking...why would she put this in her blog if she didn't want to tell us about it.  Well I have decided to put myself in someone else's shoes. After speaking with my co-worker, and how he spoke on the significance of the prayers and support of others through this time; it's was the awaking I needed.  So I realized that I need to tell my friends and loved ones about what is going on.  I need prayer and support!  I know God loves us and He protects, but I am still scared.  Please pray for Jesse and I as we continue through our journey of battling this disease.  I know God has a plan and one day this will all make sense to me.